So...I guess this is a little bit of an update on me...but...its not like anyone reads this anyway. Just a place for me to vent...when I cant vent to the people I need to.
I am upset lately, and I feel a little bit betrayed. I have no proof, no evidence, but I just know. Just like I just knew I was pregnant. I know you are seeing someone else, and I even know who she is. You deny it, say you are just friends, but I dont buy it. I know. I hate it, I used to be the center of your attention, and now that either you are tired of me, or I am pregnant...you found a new toy. I know you care about me, I know that, but it just isnt enough. Not anymore.
I am going to find out for sure soon enough. I hope that I dont catch you in a compromising situation...I would lose all the respect for you that I have. But my "feelings" usually arent wrong, and that is a blessing and a curse all at the same time. I wish you would just tell me. Does she even know about me?  Does she know that I am carrying your child? I hate that I even care. I hate myself for caring about you...but u make it so easy by saying all the right things...I want to believe you, but...but...I just cant.
I guess I am just going to start the process of getting over you. I am sorry, but my heart isnt doing well right now, and I need the honesty we always promised each other...I just dont think you can give me what I need. Although...I wish in my heart of hearts that you would prove me wrong.

 If my life was a movie...I think it would be a romantic comedy...I am all about love and laughing.  Yeah I know...it is corny, but that is my life. There would be seriously dramatic and gut renching scenes...but over all I think that there would be alot of funny parts...and parts that you say "Awwwww"...
I would cast Christina Ricci to play me, she just reminds me of me...and I have been told I kinda look like her. I would cast Orlando Bloom to play Justin, he has that mysteriousness that justin does, and the girls think my hubby is gorgeous. Lol. My mom  would be Merryl Streep, my stepdad would be James Gandolfeni (sp?). My lil bro would be the kid who is on "Drake and Josh", Josh. My older brother would be played by Nicholas cage. (Ewwww)  Cj would be played by Dane Cook, Sarah would be played by Rosario Dawson...My son would be played by himself since he is such a great actor already :) My biological father would be played by...hmmmm...Jack Nicholason. There...that is enough for now... :)

I would have to say that all types of music inspire me, but all in different ways. I think that the saying that music can alter moods is true. Our mind is such a complex thing, that we cant really even begin to understand how the difference in sounds and energies effect us. 
When I am feeling sad or heartbroken, I want to hear love songs, or something angsty. When I am happy or upbeat, I want something Pop-ish or rockish...Although the one band that I have found that I can find music for every mood I expirience is Pop Evil. I love them. You should totally check them out!! They really have great music. (And they are really cool guys too)

Yeah...I Love Pop Evil...What can I say?!

I think I am like a cabbage...I have many layers...I can be bitter sometimes and am an aquired taste. Although if you steam me up and rub some butter on me, I am fantastic!    :D
Lmao...Yeah thats me...